In all honesty I am more than slightly scared for prelims, of not being able to meet my own expectations because I told myself last year that I don't want to be the person who screws up at prelims only to realise how lax she's been with studying and then mugs like crazy to get a good grade at O's. I don't want people to think I got a good grade just because of that. (Though it's good to know I studied hard, but I hate that people will think I'm not smart and this is like the one-off exam that I did well for.
I don't want people thinking that my doing well is a one off thing, the way that they already do. But talking to Janella today made me kinda realise that I don't need to live up to the world's expectations, but just to God's. And no one's opinion matters, no one but God's.
Today I spent 1 hour trying to prove a 3 mark question during the Amath mock sigh i really need to practice more.
(I realised I am starting to blog in a twitter like way, all I really want to say is one sentence, not an entire paragraph. Hmm. Oh well here twitter comes in useful yay twitter.com/offsugaronlove)
I will never have to have chinese tuition again, for the rest of my life teeheehee. It wasn't too bad, thank God, despite my breakdown the night before because I realised everyone was studying like crazy and I knew zilch. My only regret is not reading into the YOG thing abit more because I was so sure it wouldn't come out but then it did thank God because it was the only thing I knew how to talk about!! Hahaha. Though I didn't say all that much, but the passage was relatively easy and I think I read significantly better than I usually do but thank God really, knew He would carry me through
